I don’t know what to call this post. “The post I don’t want to write” “The post I’ve been putting off for 2 1/2 weeks ” “The post I don’t know how to write”.
I have a confession to make: I was planning to stop blogging as soon as I matched into residency.
I’ve loved every minute of this blog, but lately I’ve felt rather disenchanted with blogging. I just don’t feel like I have anything exciting to write about. I don’t really want to just post about my food and my workouts; it’s not fulfilling to me.
I definitely don’t intend to blog during residency. I want to focus 100% on learning everything I can for those 4 years.
These next few months before graduation are going to be such a weird time for me. I don’t really have any strenuous rotations left, but I know I will be crazy busy finding a home in Minnesota, selling my house here, planning my wedding, packing up my life into boxes, and wrapping up all my med school stuff.
So where does the blog fit in? I thought it would be easy to quit blogging. I thought I would just stop and that would be it. But for the past week, I’ve caught myself thinking daily, “that would be a great thing to blog about!” or “I should blog about this!”
A Doctor In The House has become such an enormous part of my life- and I didn’t even realize it! Even though I only blogged for an hour each day, I spent much more time taking photos of my day, thinking about what to write, reading other blogs, participating in blogging campaigns, and answering emails. It’s crazy how many emails we get as bloggers!
I really hate the thought of stepping away from all the friends I’ve made blogging. I love this community and I love interacting with people. I can’t tell you how much each little comment on a post means to me; it’s what makes blogging so fun.
I just don’t know what to do.
I don’t feel super motivated to blog every day like I have in the past. But I also don’t feel 100% ready to stop. And I don’t want to (pardon my language) half-ass anything. I don’t want to just blog “every now and then”. I don’t know.
I’m so sorry for this mess of a post. I welcome any and all advice.
In the mean time, in true blogger form, I guess I should update you all on life this month!
I’ve been working in the lab doing research this month and it’s been wonderful! I haven’t had a 9-5 type schedule in months, so it’s nice to have some structure back into my days. I’m doing a project on retinoblastoma, mostly focusing on imaging tumor growth. It’s pretty sweet. I’m also really enjoying not having to dress up as much as I do for the clinic.
This past year I helped start an eye clinic for low-income Indianapolis residents. We had a vision clinic this weekend and it was a huge success. So many people volunteered to work at the eye clinic- I was thrilled!
Here’s a photo we took of a patient’s eye. The camera we use can take photos of the retina without dilating the patient’e eye, which is amazing.
And that’s about it. So sorry for this weird post. I’d love to hear your thoughts!